Brokenness: Pieces being Stitched

Brokenness: Pieces being Stitched: Part 1 

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I have been a God's child since birth. Through the years, I've known Him mostly through songs like a 4-year old kid will sing El Shaddai songs with El Shaddai is the only distinctive lyrics. And then I saw the devotion of my lola (grandmother) to Our Mother of Perpetual, and so when I was in hhigh school I became a member of Youth for Mary and Christ, a marian youth movement who is taking Mary as our own model and with our goal of being a saint. It is so ironic that I who had been God's for years had experienced the deepest pains, but I shouldn't complain, shall I? Isn't Jesus said that "Anyone who wants to follow me, must took up his cross and follow me". But sometimes you can't really help but to question God but suddenly you can feel His presence surrounding you and saying 'it is okay my child I am here' and then you will feel peace. It is like a puzzle piece that each and every pain is a big part to create a whole picture of yourself. 

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I came from the broken family, believe me that is the least thing that you will want to happen in your family life. Broken relationship with your parents trying to build up a good relationship to your siblings. I could live poor, that is way easier than having a broken family. That's why, I don't know why did the number of broken families grow? Why did the parents, husbands and wives being married and then will separate at the end. Do they know that, that is the worst thing that could ever happen to their family. FA-M-ILY means Father, Mother, I Love You. How can the children feel their love if they are separated? Are they ever sorry to break their child's heart? Are they being too selfish? I understand that in some cases that there is a need for separation. Like for example, battered wife, husband or child. That might need a temporary separation. But not permanent, people can change. They say that family is the basic unit of the society so then if the family is broken so did the society, the state, the country. 

But you know what being in the presence of God healed me. He sends angels to love me. My grandmother is there acting as my mother, my aunt is there supporting us financially. I can't asked God for more. I saw God's plan to me. He wants me to be His witness. That even I came from a broken family still live in a life of service to God. With God's goodness I grew up well. I don't have any vices. I have good and real sets of friendship that don't lead me astray. Many children out there are came from a broken family also and I wanted to reach out to them. I wanted to tell them that it is okay to cry to God's shoulders. Alcohol, drugs, nicotine won't help them it will just worsen the feelings. BE GOD'S SERVANT. Be God's warrior. And I am telling you that no matter how heavy burdens might be. HE is Always Under Control. I know, I attest to that truth and I believe, that in some years my whole family will live in our dream house. 'Cause as of the moment God is working, healing is taking place to my family. He makes my mother reconcile with my father's family, so our two families get along together. I am living together with my siblings. My mother and father is visiting us once in a while. Sometimes my mother is sleeping with us, whenever we asked her too. We are getting there, maybe not now, not next year, but I know soon very soon, I will be walking down the stairs and I will see my whole family eating together and we will pray before meals like we used to, telling stories of how God blessed our day. And we will go out every Sundays to the Feast. It is my prayer everyday in my Novena to God's Love. And I ask this in Jesus' name. Amen.

Single till Notice

Well, I have here a song that from my sweetest ever beloved singer, Taylor Swift, I love her truly because of her songs. Like for this one, Invisible, God! for years I think I am like that, invisible from men that I liked. Being single for 20 years seems like a joke to me, most especially when my cousin had her first boyfriend at 15. It's like are you kidding me?! I mean, I am not that noticeable. Well, I truly dedicate this song to this special man. Well, he calls me that, invisible. I like him a lot but you know being in love or liking someone that is like heaven and you are hell, I mean earth rather. It will just won't work. He's rich, intelligent, humorous, responsible, a man that every girl would like to be with and I am what, yeah, invisible. Ouch! I do love hurting myself don't I? I just can't have him. Spending an hour or two every other day is it enough time for him to notice me? Wanna know what makes it worst when you are loving someone that you know cannot love you back. *Silence* *Tears* *Regret* *Sigh*

I know that my journey doesn't ends here. But if given a chance "I just wanna show you, baby let me love you like I want too. And if you knew me we could be a beautiful miracle unbelievable instead of just invisible."

Win Life by simply not Giving Up!

I attended a recollection last April 20, 2011 in Megatrade Hall at SM Megamall. I am so blessed with all the talks of the speakers and one of the highlight of the talk of Fr. Dave Concepcion, he showed this video. A video of Derek Redmond, an athlete, who depicts a story of great love, perseverance and fighting for the one that you really love and want. But what touched me the most is when his father came running towards to him from the crowd ready to support him seeing his child suffering and torment yet kept on running to finish the race. When he held his son, Derek, cried on his shoulder, he even told his son that there is no need to do it but seeing the great desire of Derek to finish his race, his father held him up and they do it together. And the father let go of Derek when they are near the finish line so that Derek can get all the glory. I bet his father was very happy and proud watching his son finish his own race with all his might, despite the pain. 


I, myself come to reflect that the Father is like that, He let us finish our race and when trouble pains, when storm strikes and make us fall. He will be there, carrying us, helping us and showing His never fading love for us. All we just have to do is Never Ever Give Up! Winners are winners simply because they do not give up.! 


Happy Easter! May you have found yourself closer to God this season. God bless you all! I'll be praying for you.

The Royal Wedding Kate Middleton and Prince William: Inviting their exes to their wedding??

As we all know Kate and Prince William Nuptial is the most awaited wedding of all. It's been named the Wedding of the Century. But before the exchanging of vows on April 29,2011, do you know that both them invited their "exes" to their wedding I've found this at E online:

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"The prince has invited Rose Farquhar, Arabella Musgrave, Olivia Hunt and Jecca Craig. Each one of these broads is classier and prettier than the last. On the big day, each will, doubtless, be wearing an amazing custom-tailored hat. And—most importantly—all of them run in the same general social circle as the royal family.


In other words: These ladies may be exes, but they're also generally believed to be real friends of the bride, groom or both." Eonline


Okay, so for both of them past is past. They are going to marry and live together for the rest of their lives. And it is a very good thing that you maintain a healthy friendship between you and your ex, so that there is a closure of your relationship right?!


I remember a same story but with a twist from a Kerygma preacher, Bro. Arun Gogna. He and his wife was invited to the wedding of his ex-girlfriend and his wife was the one who received the invitation. His wife was skeptical of the attending the of course she may feel out-of-place there. But then his wife still come and in the wedding reception Bro. Arun saw his another ex-girlfriend, so her wife was upset at that time. Bro. Arun knowing the feelings of his wife looked at his ex-girlfriend who's just been married he said that 'wow, she's really beautiful' looked at his wife, then looked at his another ex-girlfriend again saying 'wow, she's really nice' looked at his wife again. He knows that, at that time his wife was really upset, and he also knew that very moment it is the best time to say to his wife these words, he actually whisper these to his wife "I made the right choice [of marrying you]". 


Wow, maybe it is the same message that Prince William and wanted to say to each other in front of everybody even in front of their exes. They 'Made the Right Choice'. 


May God bless this Royal Wedding! :))) <3

A Call Center Agent Can Save Money Too!

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Being a call center agent is the most available and most popular job here in the Philippines. It is also the one of the most high paying job for the undergraduates, fresh graduates and even some graduates of college. That's why I am an agent, I am an undergraduate of BS Accountancy.  
Anyway, I've been in the call center industry for almost one year and I've been in two companies in less than a year, I've lasted 7 months for the first company, reason of leaving? Load of work, imagined I am taking 400-800 calls a day it is a very short calls that lated only for 40 seconds. Now in my second job, I admit it I am receiving a low salary but still the load of work isn't much plus I enjoy it. 
On my first job I am earning 14,000 Php plus bonuses, more or so I am getting 17,000 a month. But to tell you something I NEVER SAVE ANYTHING FROM MY PAY! Well, I did save a little and that little is 5000 Php, imagine that!

Where did my money gone? 
1. TAX expense, imagine for every cut-off there is a tax of 1,000+ so that's two cut-offs a month so just do the math.


2. BILLS expense, well as very responsible child (ahem!) I am obligated to pay any of the two: Electrical bill or Telephone bill. Good luck to me, those two bills are around 3,000+ per month. 


3. HEALTH expense,  well yes I am getting a high pay but my health had been at risk. I've been confined in a hospital about a week because I am diagnosed of Gastritis. For goodness sake, I am not smoking, I am not drinking alcohol but when we held our first and last team building I am forced to try to take one shot of gin, the next day I am in the hospital. Haha. Very good right?! I paid around 12,000 cash plus I have to shoulder my medicines. Even though I have this health card I still pay that 12,000 plus the fact that I am in Leave of Absence (LOA) for a month. Meaning No Income for a month. Very good again!


4. Transportation and Allowance, well this only occupies 20% of my income a month. I am very thrifty when it comes to this expense I have my packed lunch with me and I just walk in the streets of Makati Ave. to save money and to avoid the traffic as well.


5. OTHER expenses, the biggest portion of all expenses. This includes planned and unplanned food tripping, shopping or going from one place to another. This also includes the school allowance of my brother and sisters. (I know, I know, I am their hero, haha. But honestly they take it as their pay because I let them do all the household chores. :p)


INCOME - EXPENSES = SAVINGS 
Robert Kyosaki said that is the cashflow of the poor. Well I guess, I am poor for now, but just FOR NOW! I AM LEARNING TO INVEST AND SAVE BY THIS TIME! 


Thank you to my mentors: 
Robert Kyosaki, I love his book Rich Dad, Poor Dad, the best financial book ever!!


Bo Sanchez, I love his books as well the Turning Thoughts into Dreams and How to Conquer Your Goliath. He is also my spiritual mentor.


Jomar Hilario, I am a member of his Online Mentoring Club, because of him I have open myself to the Online Marketing World.


Now on my second job even though I am just earning 12,000 Php as my starting pay. I am okay with it, first, because of the load of work, it is a lot easier and besides I'm just newly hire. Second, it is more accessible to my place. Third, since my pay is lower I am forced to change my lifestyle. I opened myself to lot more opportunities of  earning money. I strictly discipline myself to avoid unnecessary expenses and and my family is forced to change their lifestyle too. Here are some ways of cutting down our cost of living:


1. We are downgrading our internet connection and telephone subscription from 1300 to 990, 300 a month isn't bad start right?

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2. We are also minimizing the usage of our air conditioner. We only use this when we some visitors.


3. We are also taking advantage of the competing market in the grocery stores we are buying those less expensive products than the usual branded ones. They are more likely the same anyway.


There they are! They might be simple but they are really helpful.


By the way, let me share some of the things I learn from my super idol and great mentor Bo Sanchez.
He said that once you get your pay, you have to divide it into 5 sections: Tithe Fund, Retirement Fund, Expense Fund, Support Fund and Emergency Fund (it is further explained in his book My Maid Invest in the Stock Market and Why You Should Too!). So this is how it works into my pay:


1. 1,200 for my Tithe Fund. This is very crucial because Bro. Obet Cabrillas said one of my favorite Kerygma Preachers, told us that God will bless more of 90% when you give your 10% to Him. 


2. 2,400 for my Retirement Fund. This shall make my dreams come true and make me financially free! Yay!


3. 2,400 for my Expense Fund. This should includes my monthly allowance and personal expenses. 


4. 3,000 for my Support Fund. This is supposed to be includes all the money that I will give to support my family.


5. 3,000 for my Emergency Fund. This is my savings for my future  studies. I know it is not enough, but at least I have some. 

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The two most followed and important funds for me are the Tithe Fund and the Retirement Fund. I know I am just 20 and I am talking of retirement already? Well of course I want to retire at 40 like my mentor Robert Kyosaki. The last three funds I often mixed them or not follow them because of some unnecessary expenses that I am now trying to control. But I am trying my best to budget everything. Well I didn't include there the tax from the government  but how I wish that my night difference can compensate it. :) 


Well there you go, even if your a call center agent or not just apply this in your own. and you'll see you will get the hang of it plus you can make your dreams come true. All you have to do is have a BIASED FOR ACTION and DISCIPLINE YOURSELF. Remember there is NO such thing as Easy Money. :)

Is our government strong? Here are some of the 'what if the government shuts down' comments from Twitter

There is an increase of 'government shut down' it is when the government is in no of control of the country or state. This is happening or happened  to Egypt, Libya, Yemen may happen to Saudi or in any other countries so in Twitter it is becoming a popular topic. Here are some of their comments:

•  IvanCostello Ígor Iván : #IfGovernmentShutsDown are we going to keep paying taxes? lol

• hannah_Palmerr Hannahhhhh Bieber (; : #ifgovernmentshutsdown I will be living In a trash hole because both of my parents work for the FBI... #wow

• MyNameIsSergiy Sergiy Dybskiy : #ifgovernmentshutsdown im taking the white house and making it into a club

• truepatriotsnet TruePatriotsNetwork : #ifgovernmentshutsdown The brave men and women of the military will be working WITHOUT pay! #tcot #tpp #tlot #dtom

• ZachMayf Zach Mayfield : starting a revolution #ifgovernmentshutsdown

• 707Catseye Harriette Sucher : So I gather the entire USA will be just like California w/ automatic furloughs & office closures unpaid LE & more#ifgovernmentshutsdown?

• simonjohnrope Simon Rope : #ifgovernmentshutsdown the world would END!

• iOlympia Olympian : This #ifgovernmentshutsdown TT manifested signs of people's cluelessness & incomprehension of whos liable for state affairs in this country.

• _MissCortez → Miss Cortez ϟ : I think the world would actually be chaos#ifgovernmentshutsdown. People say "fuck the government" but they need the government, hmm..

• TasteMiiTweets So Hot Khalifa♥ : #ifgovernmentshutsdown . . . the whole world would need to turn to God ! #Leggo!(shutdown!) -SoHotKhalifa

As for me, I won't pray that the government will shut down but if it ever happens I will make sure that I have a strong a business so that even though I don't have my Social Security I'll still can survive. Plus I will enjoy the fact that there are no taxes.! :))

All About Taylor Swift

Taylor Swift

Taylor Swift, a 21 year old country-pop singer, who is making really big hits (and in fact she just won the Academy of Country Music (ACM) Entertainer of the Year last April 3, 2011). I've never been a fan of any singer before, but I do love listening to music. Most of the time I know the title and lyrics of the song but I don't bother to know who is the singer of the song. 


I don't know what happened to me when I saw the music video of Love Story by Taylor Swift, I fell in-love with the song together with Taylor Swift. Maybe it's her innocent eyes and wonderful voice that made me a fan of hers but nevertheless since then, I've been a huge fan of Taylor. I searched her songs, her profile and everything about her just fascinates me. I am most fascinated of course in her songs. In most of her songs, I can always relate myself it feels like she's singing the things that I can't say or expressed. Also, what I like about her is, her life is an open book, she's very transparent, true and genuine person. If she feels something she expressed it through her songs. Unlike any other young singers, Taylor choose to stay modest and humble and very family oriented that's why I truly love her. I know that she's been gone a very long way from 2006 but it doesn't matter she stays the same and she love her fans. 

That's why when she held her Asia Tour Concert here in Manila last February 19, 2011 in Araneta Coliseum, I really bought a ticket. Even though I am far from her because I just have an Upperbox B ticket she still looks up in our way and wave in the middle of her concert. That is one thing that I will never ever forget. I've been ENCHANTED by Taylor's lovely voice, her so feminine moves and her undoubtedly charm. I never get near her but I know someday I will have a chance to talk to her personally and we will talk about anything cause eventually we will become friends. :)

I have a list of my 13 favorite songs and lines from Taylor Swift from her first album Taylor Swift to Fearless to Speak Now. (13 is Taylor's favorite number.)

Taylor Swift first album

From her first album Taylor Swift: 

•  Picture to Burn 

State the obvious I didn't get my perfect fantasy

I realized you love yourself

More that you could ever love me 

So go and tell your friends

That I'm obsessive and crazy

That's fine, I'll tell mine

You're gay and by the way...

...As far as I'm concerned

You're just another picture to burn

•  Our Song 

                   I was walking up the front porch steps

                        After everything that day
                        Had gone all wrong or been trampled on
                        And lost and thrown away

                        Got to the hallway, well, on my way
                        To my lovin' bed
                        I almost didn't notice all the roses
                        And the note that said

                                 Our song is the slamming screen door

                         Sneakin' out late, tapping on your window
                         When we're on the phone and you talk real slow
                         'Cause it's late and your mama don't know

                        Our song is the way you laugh
                        The first date man, I didn't kiss her and I should have
                        And when I got home, 'fore I said amen
                        Asking God if He could play it again

•  Invisible

                        She can't see the way your eyes

Light up when you smile

She'll never notice how you stop and stare 

whenever she walks by

And you can't see me wanting you the way you want her

But you are everything to me

                     And I just wanna show you she don't even know you
                     She's never gonna love you like I want to
                     And you just see right through me
                     But if you only knew me
                     We could be a beautiful miracle, unbelievable
                     nstead of just invisible 

From Taylor Swift's album Fearless
Fearless 
                      ...But you're just so cool, run your hands through your hair









                      Absent-mindedly makin' me want you









                     And I don't know how it 
gets better than this
                     You take my hand and 
drag me headfirst, fearless
                     And I don't know why but with you I dance
                     In a storm in my best dress, fearless








So baby drive slow 'til we run out of road
In this one horse town, I wanna stay right here
In this passenger seat, you put your eyes on me
In this moment, now capture it, remember it
Fifteen 
When all you wanted was to be wanted 
 Wish you could go back and tell yourself what you know now...


 Cause when you're fifteen and somebody tells you they love you 
 You're gonna believe them
 And when you're fifteen, don't forget to look before you fall
 I've found time can heal most anything
 And you just might find who you're supposed to be
 I didn't know who I was supposed to be at fifteen
Love story 
 I got tired of waiting. Wondering if you were ever coming around.
 My faith in you was fading-
 When I met you on the outskirts of town.
 And I said...


 Romeo save me, I've been feeling so alone.
 I keep waiting, for you but you never come.
 Is this in my head, I don't know what to think-
 He knelt to the ground and pulled out a ring and said...




 Marry me Juliet, you'll never have to be alone.  
 I love you, and that's all I really know.
 I talked to your dad -- go pick out a white dress
 It's a love story, baby just say... yes.
You Belong with Me










 And you've got a smile that could light up this whole town. 
 I havent seen it in awhile, since she brought you down
 You say you find I know you better than that
 Hey, Whatcha doing with a girl like that

 But she wears short skirts, I wear t-shirts
 She's cheer captain and I'm on the bleachers
 Dreaming bout the day when you wake up and find
 That what you're looking for has been here the whole time

 If you could see that I'm the one who understands you  
 Been here all along so why can't you see? 
 You belong with me










From Taylor's newest album Speak Now










Speak Now 
She floats down the aisle   
 Like a pageant queen
 But I know you wish it was me
 You wish it was me (Don't you?)

Don't say yes, run away now
 I'll meet you when you're out
 Of the church at the back door


 Don't wait or say a single vow
 You need to hear me out 
 And they said "speak now"










Mine 










Flash forward and we're taking on the world together 
And there's a drawer of my things at your place
 You learn my secrets and you figure out why I'm guarded
 You say we'll never make my parents' mistakes


And I remember that fight, 2:30 a.m.
 As everything was slipping right out of our hands
 I ran out crying and you followed me out into the street


Braced myself for the goodbye
 'Cause that's all I've ever known
 Then you took me by surprise
 You said I'll never leave you alone

 You said I remember how we felt sitting by the water
 And every time I look at you, it's like the first time
 I fell in love with a careless man's careful daughter
 She is the best thing that's ever been mine

Back to December

 And then the cold came, the dark days
 When fear crept into my mind
 You gave me all your love, and all I gave you was goodbye


 So this is me swallowing my pride
 Standing in front of you, saying I'm sorry for that night
 And I go back to December all the time


 It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you
 Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine
 I go back to December, turn around and change my own mind
 I go back to December all the time


 I miss your tan skin, your sweet smile
 So good to me, so right
 And how you held me in your arms that September night
 The first time you ever saw me cry


 Maybe this is wishful thinking
 Probably mindless dreaming
 But if we loved again, I swear I'd love you right
Never Grow Up
Your little hands wrapped around my finger
And it's so quiet in the world tonight
Your little eyelids flutter 'cause you're dreaming
So I tuck you in, turn on your favorite night light

To you, everything's funny
You got nothing to regret
I'd give all I have, honey
If you could stay like that

Oh, darling, don't you ever grow up, don't you ever grow up
Just stay this little
Oh, darling, don't you ever grow up, don't you ever grow up
It could stay this simple

I won't let nobody hurt you
Won't let no one break your heart
No, no one will desert you
Just try to never grow up, never grow up








Mean
Well, you can take me down with just one single blow
But you don't know what you don't know

Someday I'll be living in a big old city
And all you're ever gonna be is mean
Someday I'll be big enough so you can't hit me
And all you're ever gonna be is mean

Why you gotta be so mean?

You, with your switching sides and your walk-by lies and your humiliation
You, have pointed out my flaws again as if I don't already see them
I'll walk with my head down trying to block you out 'cause I'll never impress you
I just wanna feel okay again
Enchanted
This night is sparkling, don't you let it go
I'm wonder-struck, blushing all the way home
I'll spend forever wondering if you knew
I was enchanted to meet you


This night is flawless, don't you let it go
I'm wonder-struck, dancing around all alone
I'll spend forever wondering if you knew
I was enchanted to meet you


This is me praying that


This was the very first page, not where the storyline ends
My thoughts will echo your name until I see you again
These are the words I held back as I was leaving too soon
I was enchanted to meet you


Please don't be in love with someone else
Please don't have somebody waiting on you
Please don't be in love with someone else
Please don't have somebody waiting on you

Those are my top 13 songs and lines from Taylor Swift. Taylor I really wish you will read this. 
And as your song goes 'Long Live' my dear and be always be an inspiration to your fans. 
Congratulations for winning the ACM Entertainer of the Year-award, you totally deserve it.!
 I love you and take care! God bless.! :) <3